I am empty


My heart is a whole lot emptier these days. One month today my father passed away tragically in an accident and I still cannot believe the reality. I expect him to come walking around the corner or burst through the door or offer advice on something I am needing help with.

It is difficult to explain the feelings of losing a loved one so tragically, so suddenly, so unexpected. The only way I can describe how I feel is empty, a physical emptiness that I can feel inside.

While my whole world seems to be falling apart; the world keeps going on around me, almost making it harder.

One month ago I lost a big part of me that will never come back. Although time will ease the pain and fond memories will remain in my mind and heart, the big piece of me will forever be lost.

I have found comfort in the family, friends and strangers that have reached out and touched my heart in some way or another. Flowers, cards, food, messages, prayers, letters and visits have warmed my heart.

I miss you dad; forever in my thoughts and heart.


About rachtav

Hmmm...this is a tricky one! I tend to function a lot better in life when the focus is away from me...which is why I find this so difficult to write! I am a 30-something full-time teacher with a dog named Basil. Perhaps if I document some of the things I love, dislike and everything in between first. LOVE...my Maltese dog Basil, my fiancé Simon, wasting ridiculous amounts of time browsing the internet, teaching, laughing, cleaning (call me crazy I know), craft things, photography, fiddling with things to make them perfect…I am a little OCD, ASD and also have moments of ADD! DISLIKE...cooking (although Simon loves it so we're a match made in heaven), watching copious amounts of TV, how forgetful I am, the anxiety I harbour for almost everything! One day I would love a pocket of land to live on where my dog and a teacup piglet will be the best of friends and frolic amongst the garden beds. Haha, well one can dream!

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